WED, MARCH 1ST
Appointment with my new doctor as my previous (fantastic one) has gone on maternity leave. I've come to ask for a Centrelink medical certificate and for help cutting out tobacco from my cannabis mix when I smoke. I've seen plenty of information about tobacco causing stroke and heart disease, and that doctors can help. Since I tested positive for APS I'm more aware of my long-term health and want to reduce my risk of stroke and heart attacks immediately.
She explained to me that I didn't seem like I was in a good mindset to be quitting, and that since I will still be smoking weed for my pains she will help me when I'm ready to quit all smoking. She prescribed me Celebrex, a 12 hour anti inflammatory.
When I got the prescription filled right afterwardsd, the pharmacist asked if I had a follow-up appointment booked in a couple of weeks to review the medication as it is known to cause blood clots, strokes, heart attacks and mild withdrawal symptoms.
SUN, MARCH 5TH
My birthday!! Am actually really grateful that I currently have Celebrex so that I'm able to go to a restaurant and sit up for a few hours. We went to Nobu and I even lasted an hour at the arcade in the casino afterwards.
THU, MARCH 9TH
Witnessed someoneΒ clearly make a joke about me having an autoimmune disorder. You cannot force someone to respect you, your needs or to understand something they cannot see with their own eyes.Β I'm very stubborn soΒ I'm planning to make my health my main priority now.
MARCH 10TH - 16TH
Bad PMS. This generally happens when I'm stressed or overworked. I've been working really hard on my brand and my online content lately, so I think it's from that. It's not shocking but it is unwelcome for sure. Every day I felt:
- Insomnia (3-5 hours of sleep a night)
- Muscle aches (traps, back, biceps, back of thighs)
- Migraines
- Joint pains (knees, wrists, elbows, knuckles)
- Pain in right eye
- SEVERE fatigue
TUE, MARCH 14TH
Psychotherapy today. The tram there was unbearable as I was in so much pain. got a lot of looks from other passengers for using the priority seat. This really upset and irritated me.
Gina continues to reassure me that I don't need to be ashamed of my needs and I don't need to be living the same lifestyle as everyone else I know. My more introverted and slower lifestyle still has amazing benefits some people would be jealous of.
THU, MARCH 16TH
Almost immediately after getting my period felt 30% more refreshed and did chores, work and went out to the shops. Can finally cook meals and save some money by not buying frozen dishes or delivery.
FRI, MARCH 17TH
Online interview about overcoming alcoholism just dropped. They completely edited out everything I said about my physical health and living below the poverty line impacting my addictions. The only significant part they left in was that my father died and I helped raise my little sister. At first I thought this was funny. Over time I've realised this is incredibly disrespectful to me and my family for painting that picture, and that it isn't actually helpful or informative at all to the public to not give accurate information on "awareness" videos. This makes me feel for other disabled people who may not be getting relatable information online, and makes me think about how often disabilities are just erased in the media. Hell, I'd never even heard that Selena Gomez was sick until this month.
SAT, MARCH 18TH
Took my Celebrex and could manage to go out for 4 hours. Didn't drink.
MON, MARCH 20TH
Bella Hadid is celebrating 5 months no alcohol. I connected to this as she has Lyme's Disease and I have seen her talk about reducing alcohol for her health in the past. I've wanted to reach this goal for a long time for my health. I'm aiming for this now.
Today is also the day that I can start going to medical appointments and hospitals again after I was a close contact of covid. I think I will continue to rest for the rest of the month. Too many appointments makes me feel woeful and run down.
SAT, MARCH 28TH
Bday party!! I didn't drink all night. At one point I started crying privately because I was feeling so triggered into drinking, but had good words of support and managed fine. Had one dexxie and smoked weed. Felt run down and introverted for two days. Basically ignored everyone completly and laid in bed with insomnia.
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